Funny, I have 3 or 4 blog posts that I have written, but didn't post. Weird how I have turned what was supposed to public into my private diary. This is a post though, that I have been thinking about for a long time, and am finally writing. Partly because I am buzzed, and partly because I have the time. This is going to sound a lot like a love letter to my girlfriends, mostly because that is what it is. Living at home this past year and a bit has made me realize just how vital girlfriends are in life, and how much I desperately miss them. To my male friends: I love you too, but let's be real. Girls and guys are different, and my guy friends can never supply the essence of the female friend. You may be a fantastic friend, but you're not a girlfriend.
I have never been a girl to have an obscene amount of girlfriends, and this became particularly true during college. During high school I hung out with girls more than guys to be sure, but I didn't really make new ones. I had my group, and we were cool. Most of them were from elementary school, or were friends of my friends from elementary school. I have roots with these women, and maybe that is what makes them so important. They know me, my history, who I have been, and who I am becoming. Some of us don't fit together anymore, but some of us work better now than ever. I made one real girlfriend in college, and she is just fantastic. We seem to be going through very similar things in life, and in a way, it's nice that we have no preconceived notion of what came before. We just know each other as the women we were at 20 and 19. We have similar upbringings and parents, so in a way, it feels as though I understand her past, and she gets mine.
While I haven't acquired many girlfriends, I know that the ones I have are pretty fucking fantastic. Truly. I know that girls are known to fight and be catty, but I can honestly say that I trust these women with my life. They know my secrets, and I can't honestly see them betraying me. (So... don't. okay ladies?) That's not to say we have never had our ups and downs or problems or ever gossiped about each other, but we don't.. fight. I can't think of a time I have truly been so upset with any of these girls. We may have separated for a while, and seen things differently, but I don't think I have ever felt like they have done anything to harm me or my character. (As a disclaimer, I don't really fight with anyone). I respect each one, and truly want the best for them. I love to see them succeed. I want them to be happy, and to find what they want most in life. When they succeed, I really just get so excited. They are doing awesome, and that is ALWAYS a reason for celebration.
Part of the amazing things of a girlfriend is the understanding and the support. I can tell my girlfriend that I have no clue what to do in life, and they can easily respond with a "me either. but we'll rock it when we get there." If I have an idea for what maybe I should do, it's "Hell yes, man. Do what makes you happy. You can do it!" Sometimes, you just really need someone on your side, and I feel like they are. It is hard because none of them live in the same town as me. There are so many ways to communicate, but it's just not the same. I have realized that though I don't want a romantic relationship, I really do miss my close friendships. When you feel like your support system is spread around the country, it makes it hard.
So I want to say thank you to these amazing women who are in my life. This is sappy, but true. You guys keep me sane. You make me feel like I am not the only one. I am so lucky to have people I can trust. I miss you. But distance is just shortened by a drive or a plane ride. There are many reasons why I am thankful to have you each in my life. This is enough for now though. Thank you for everything.
I have never been a girl to have an obscene amount of girlfriends, and this became particularly true during college. During high school I hung out with girls more than guys to be sure, but I didn't really make new ones. I had my group, and we were cool. Most of them were from elementary school, or were friends of my friends from elementary school. I have roots with these women, and maybe that is what makes them so important. They know me, my history, who I have been, and who I am becoming. Some of us don't fit together anymore, but some of us work better now than ever. I made one real girlfriend in college, and she is just fantastic. We seem to be going through very similar things in life, and in a way, it's nice that we have no preconceived notion of what came before. We just know each other as the women we were at 20 and 19. We have similar upbringings and parents, so in a way, it feels as though I understand her past, and she gets mine.
While I haven't acquired many girlfriends, I know that the ones I have are pretty fucking fantastic. Truly. I know that girls are known to fight and be catty, but I can honestly say that I trust these women with my life. They know my secrets, and I can't honestly see them betraying me. (So... don't. okay ladies?) That's not to say we have never had our ups and downs or problems or ever gossiped about each other, but we don't.. fight. I can't think of a time I have truly been so upset with any of these girls. We may have separated for a while, and seen things differently, but I don't think I have ever felt like they have done anything to harm me or my character. (As a disclaimer, I don't really fight with anyone). I respect each one, and truly want the best for them. I love to see them succeed. I want them to be happy, and to find what they want most in life. When they succeed, I really just get so excited. They are doing awesome, and that is ALWAYS a reason for celebration.
Part of the amazing things of a girlfriend is the understanding and the support. I can tell my girlfriend that I have no clue what to do in life, and they can easily respond with a "me either. but we'll rock it when we get there." If I have an idea for what maybe I should do, it's "Hell yes, man. Do what makes you happy. You can do it!" Sometimes, you just really need someone on your side, and I feel like they are. It is hard because none of them live in the same town as me. There are so many ways to communicate, but it's just not the same. I have realized that though I don't want a romantic relationship, I really do miss my close friendships. When you feel like your support system is spread around the country, it makes it hard.
So I want to say thank you to these amazing women who are in my life. This is sappy, but true. You guys keep me sane. You make me feel like I am not the only one. I am so lucky to have people I can trust. I miss you. But distance is just shortened by a drive or a plane ride. There are many reasons why I am thankful to have you each in my life. This is enough for now though. Thank you for everything.
